I think I was just too happy to update this thing. Heh, as so many, I use this channel to write down all my misery, and that helps resolving it. But there is a happy note now, yay !
The stomach thing went pretty well, all in all, and the doc prescribed me some new pills, which would turn me into a new being, he promised. Sceptical tho I was, I must admit he was RIGHT !!!! Haven’t had a stomach ache ever since, even drank a glass of red wine without cringing ! Stupid stubborn me should have gone to see that doc ages ago…
For the rest, it was a pretty ordinary week. Worked, played a little PC, went for lunch with Faust, talked to Les a lot… Played a nice game of Cthulhu, heh.
Had been looking forward to go to an indoor festival on friday and saturday, had arranged to meet a lot of people there, was going to pick up Jurryt at home, but… Friday I skipped, cos the bands coming weren’t that good after all, and saturday morning I checked my bank account and made some necessary payments, and… I noticed I was kinda running short on money :-(. I went to Glasgow to see my love earlier this month, and I broke a lens, so I need to spend money on that and on a new pair of glasses (my eyes need resting a bit more, so no lenses all the time), and I’m going to Paris in two weeks, with a class of 16-year old pupils, all prepaid, but still you spend money there. :-(( So I had to cancel the concert: no Funker Vogt, no Deine Lakaien, no Goethes Erben… Oh well…
Bart and I watched a movie then last night, I read Tolkien (once more) and I did some nice work, so all in all I don’t feel too bad about it.

Heh, I think I just feel content these days. More than most people can say. I wish you luck, all !!

A short update from Scotland, the region where my love lives…
The trip didn’t start out too well tho: my hubbie drove me to the airport (I have the most loving and understanding and caring husband), but when I went thru the security, they noticed my ring on the scanner. It must be said, this ring is made of pewter, but is about 20 cm long and looks like the skull of a bird with a very long beak. Pretty sharp too, I guess you could stab people with it. I really love that ring, it was given to me by Faust and is so dear to me that it’s always in my purse, no matter where I go. I had it on me on several occasions where I took the plane, but now… The guy said he couldn’t allow it in the cabin it all, it was too dangerous. Err… I hesitated, all I could do was give my purse in as luggage as well. As I hesitated, the guy started to make a big deal out of it, took it and went to the police with it. These claimed it to be an illegal murder weapon and therefor confiscated it to be thrown away! There was nothing I could do, even when I started crying ! I just was devastated, and wanted to turn back…
All numb I got on the plane, and at the other end was Les, awaiting me with a single red rose… So sweet ! We just went home, had our tea, watched an episode of Kindred (as I wanted to see that for a long time) and, heh, went to sleep.
Friday we slept long, and finally took his dad’s car (his just broke down the day before I arrived) and went into Ayr for a long walk around the town and the coast line. Heh, and at night he took me for a fancy candlelight dinner :-)))))
Saturday: slept long, played some AC, waited for the garagist to call, walked up to the garage (a couple of miles further)and took a stroll around Troon. Heh, had fish and chips at a local chippy, and man, that fish is good ! Then his friends came over and we played Chtulhu all night long.
Today: Of course we slept long, and finally decided to drive into Glasgow. Picked up Iain, a friend, but Les started to feel bad, so pretty soon we had to leave again. Les is sleeping now, while I’m at the PC. His mom is cooking me dinner, heh, and then I have to get on the plane again :-((((
This visit was wayyyy too short !

Rough

Rough week, this last one. On monday I accompanied our last graders to visit a glass factory and a splendid museum in France on the V1 and V2 bombs Germany made during WWII. Interesting, but very tiring. As an addition to that day, I had that visit to the gynaecologist. Can’t say that cheered me up, but at least I recovered by now. Tuesday I just went teaching, and slept. Slept half of the afternoon indeed. Wednesday I was the jury for an international Latin translation contest: spent all day correcting tests, yay… No, was kinda nice, esp. since I had done early and spent the rest of the afternoon at Faust’s, drinking coffee and discussing the weirdest things as usual. Man, that guy REALLY is my best friend ! Guess I just still love him. Thursday: teaching from 8 till 5, and then staff meeting for another two hours, argh ! Hurried home, swallowed some bread, drove off again to my first Nephilim table top session. If you haven’t tried it yet: give it a go ! It’s weird, but fun ! Friday: been teaching till noon, lunch with Faust and the usual coffee and talks after that, and then I went home to sleep a little, finally answer emails, read the papers from the last week… And got ready to get to Antwerp for the Vampire party this month, with a not really gothic friend. Party rocked !! Lots and lots of people, a bit too much techno-based music tho. I love electro, but no techno. At least I got to dance. AND I’ve been kissed by this beautiful girl, a remote friend of mine, who did get a tongue piercing last week. Man, she’s a goooooooood kisser! But I’m not sure: was that her or just the piercing that made me feel like that ? Heh, she had a bit too much to drink and kissed like 10 women that night, just for the feel of it. Left at 4, brought Katleen home, drove home, was there by 6. Heh, and just woke at 3 pm here. Need to leave again for the next dinner party in three hours. And tomorrow we’re going to Amsterdam, yay ! Randall, Stekske, Kai, Sammy and me. Hugius couldn’t make it, is moving this same weekend, pity tho. And on Valentine’s day I’m flying over to Glasgow to see my love for four days !!! Cant wait !!!! YAY !! Me happy happy !!

It’s weird, sometimes I like dinners a lot, sometimes I hate them. And then I mean those elaborate dinners at family or friends. Take yesterday: we had two friends over for dinner. I made scampi flamb� in Ricard and cream, then wild feasant (or however you write it) in a rich sauce of french cheese, a variety of mushrooms and cream, served with Belgian chicory, and a chinese dessert with lychees. Didn’t take me so long to make it, and a lucky thing that is, cos I went storytelling in the afternoon for Randall (he became a TV star), but I had a most enjoyable evening, even tho the house is still littered with dirty dishes now. But in a couple of hours we have to attend a formal dinner party at my parents-in-law, with half of the family whom I can’t stand, and I’m really not looking forward to it. I know the food will be delicious (my mother in law is a wonderful cook) en it will all be very posh, and the only thing I’ll have to do is just sit there, but… Can’t say I look forward to it.

How do other people actually feel towards those kind of formal family dinners ? Or towards dinners with your friends (and I don’t mean a spaghetti or stuff) which take all night ? I mean the thing with the fancy plates, with the silver cutlery and the crystal glasses, candles everywhere, fancy napkins… I tend to like it, with friends. Not with family. Is it such an ordeal for everyone, or is it just me again ?

Please tell me ?

Yes, vacation is over. Can’t say it was the best I ever had tho. First of all I hate the holidays and the compulsory happiness, and man, those carols got on my nerves !
My parents and in-laws came for dinner on Xmas eve, and that was fairly allright, but dinner the next day was hell: bad food, bad company. And then I got ill… Sniffing, sneezing, fever, coughing, generally feeling lousy. The only ever so nice thing was the fact that my Scots love came over, and that felt sooooo good ! We didn’t do much tho, mainly due to the fact that I wasn’t feeling well. Then NYE was allright too, but the next day, those family visits… Hmmm… And then, after I had more or less gotten the better of my flu virus, my PC became infected with a major virus as well that wiped my Windows, so I spent the rest of my vacation trying to set up my system again.
It’s allright by now, but now I’m back to work as well. Back to the old routine of getting up early, teaching, shopping for groceries, doing stuff around the house, make preparations and corrections…

Heh… Just my luck that I really really like my job. In fifth grade we started today with Love Poetry, which is soo nice to teach. Even when I’m feeling particularly cranky, after such a class I feel completely refreshed. Mmmm, Catullus, Ovidius, Horatius… Some Sappho from time to time… And then 3rd grade: the Metamorphoses, really nice as well.

People sometimes ask me why I’m a Latin teacher. I just can’t explain. After all those years I’m still in love with the language, and I LLLLLLLLove to teach 17year olds how to look upon a dead language as being really alive. Heh, the mere beauty of a Latin poem, the dephts of the feelings… I can’t explain. But as my students say: ‘Miss, when we see the sparkle in your eyes when you talk about Latin, we know enough. You love Latin ! You’re stark raving mad ! And we like it !’

Guess life can be okay sometimes.

Oh, and Les ? Love you !

Ok, seems I just ruined three sockets up till now, the machines are working fine.

Which can’t be said of my PC ! Well, most of it works great, but practically the most important program to me, my WordPerfect, just crashes on launching ! I already uninstalled and reinstalled, and it still gives errors on starting up. Nearly crying here, I badly badly badly need that program !

BTW, I can’t figure out what soundcard I have installed, since there are NO drivers left. Anyone any idea ? Nothing is mentioned on the card itself, I’m afraid, just some numbers… Sigh… I SO hate computers ! Why then am I addicted to them ?

Heh, I got a brand new dryer last night from my in-laws as a present. Never had a laundry dryer before, and as it’s freezing solid for a couple of days now, it comes in handy. Well… Untill last night I tried to get both the laundry machine and the dryer on the same socket of the electricity network. Guess I already blew the fuses in both the machines, great ! Why sometimes am I such an unthinking dork ? I should have known !

Heh, and still trying to fix this computer, since on january 2 I got a very nasty virus that killed off my Windows, and I had to reformat my Cdrive. I can’t see any data lost so far, but I need to reinstall every bloody program, and that sure takes a while, from Windows, to Office, to Winamp, to Acrobat, to printers… Grrr !!! Man , I hate this ! And I lost all my ICQ contacts, my complete addressbook… Blah !

Man, I’m cranky lately… Probably has to do with upcoming period, I’m pretty hormone sensitive. But today I really had reason to be cranky ! Such a bunch of incompetent idiots ! I don’t mind that people don’t know much about computers, or about graphix and that kinda stuff, as long as they just admit it. I’m always the first one to help colleagues out when they’re stuck. But… I’m making the new schoolpaper now, and the first issue was made by the boss and the secretary. Still wonder how they managed, no wonder the lay out was lousy ! I was taking over, and that was that. Since they didn’t bother to give me any information, I made it in WP (yep, graphically still superior to the MS shit), A5, hard copy. I had to beg for the drawing on the front page. ‘NP’ the secretary said, ‘I’ll mail it to you’. Me happy, untill I saw she sent me a Corel Draw preview. Hmm. Next day, I tell her that’s pretty worthless, so… ‘Np’, she says, ‘I’ll send it again’. I get a happy mail, telling me she sent a Word file this time. ‘For a jpg?’ I think. Oh well, I can rip it. Uh huh. She has sent me a word object from the entire front page, utterly bad quality, and useless again. Oh well… By now, as I hand in the papers, they tell me they want it digitally. oh ? Err, ok, I’ll put it on CDrom and hand it in. Next day: sorry, no can do, we can’t use the WP file. Oh ? ‘BTW, that frontpage still doesn’t look good’. Hell yeah, I know ! ‘Mind giving me THE BLOODY JPG I’VE BEEN ASKING FOR ? Instead of sth else ? I’ll try and save it in the computer room as PDF then.’ Well, to cut it short, she has given me three different disks with everything BUT a jpg, bmp or png on it, so my colleague finally went down and took the jpg himself. Bloody morons ! Turns out the computer I’ve made the changes on, is blocked with a password by one of our students, so no network. CRAP !
Ok, this patient soul resolves to take everything home again, and rewrite the whole document on disk as PDF. Ok. Everything solved ? NAh ! ‘Sorry, but we can’t use the PDF format on A5. It should be A4 and portrait. Oh, and can you please email it to us then, cos we’re running out of time’. Grrr !!! Ok, another two hours spent reformatting the whole thing. Heh, mail, and gone. GONE ??? No way ! ‘Mailbox storage exceeded’ The morons didn’t have an email account large enough ! Grrr !!! I tried to cut the document in half, no use. Heh, finally uploaded it on my server, and gave them the addy where they could find the bloody PDF digital A4 format. BLAH !

And then Bart and Les were wondering why I was pissed ! Instead of just telling me what they could and could not handle ???? I really hate incompetent people !

Heh, 20 minutes past midnight, and no more corrections for me this year !! Hehe, finally done !! You students, you should realise what you make us go through every single exam period again !!!
Happy girl here now (for as long as it lasts, heh) !
Oh btw, LOTR really ruled !!!

Another morning, another day… There’s nothing else to do but carrying on, I suppose, so that’s what I’m doing here. Gonna be an extremely busy day, since I still have about 20 exams to correct till tomorrow, and it takes me half an hour a piece… Was supposed to go to a birthday party yesterday, but never made it. Just didn’t feel like it, for a number of reasons. One of them being that the band I founded was playing there, and after they have kicked me out half a year ago, it’s still painful to hear the songs I used to play as well… They modified them so they don’t need a violin anymore. Oh well… Another evening wasted, another evening survived.
At least I have seen LOTR !

Blah, gonna correct. Wish me luck !