Quite an uneventful week, actually, apart from…
Got a phonecall
on Monday evening, Faust. I had already sensed last week that sth was
wrong, but I never really asked, since I hadn’t been alone with him.
Well, it all came out on that phone. He’s really doubting his
relationship again. Last year, after little over a year, he broke up
with Jurryt, cos he’s too shallow, no real wit, no backbone. Faust spent
the next four months alone, and found out how hard it is to find
another Gay Gothic Geek. He brooded and thought a lot, and on New Year’s
Day, he went to Jurryt to get back together. Jurryt was so happy, Faust
is the man of his life. I shook my head, and kept silent.
Now, after 9 months, the same problems resurface. Jurryt is a really sweet guy, very loving and all, but… No depth. So Faust is really doubting, and will probably end it again.
What has this to do with me ? Well… Simply put: if Faust goes down the drain, so do I. We’re soulmates, we’re related. If he can’t sleep, I’ll have a very uneasy night. If he’s restless, so am I. If I need to talk, the phone rings before I have decided to call him. So if he gets depressed…
after work, I went to his place, and we talked a lot. Made him see
things more clearly. Wednesday nothing much happened: physiotherapist,
that’s about all. Thursday I was really beat, dunno why, really tired
when I came home from teaching, and I went to show my mum the new city
library and the big mall near it. When I came home, I just crashed on
the couch, felt exhausted. Too tired to read, nothing on telly, arm too
sore to be at the PC… Called Faust, but he had visitors. No roleplay
either. Friday I had planned on being at his place all afternoon, but my
father in law was here to weed the garden, clean the pavements, repair a
doorhandle and lock… Ended up at Faust only round 6. We talked, I had
to calm him down cos he was very jumpy. I never made it to the
coffeehouse where Bart and Dirk were, thought I’d meet them for dinner.
Dinner was cancelled cos of the crappy week Ilse had had, and she wanted
to go for a swim. So another uneventful evening at home. Played some
more Asheron’s Call.
Today: nothing much either. Bit chilly, so I lit the fireplace :-))) God I love roaring blazing fires ! Me on the couch, cat at my feet, dog next to me on the floor, beautiful classical concert on the telly, fire roaring… So I fell asleep !
Sometimes I think I’m getting old…